GUILT

You visit your favorite porn site and click on your favorite category "Ebony Girls" with Big tits, somehow you are not intrigued with white chicks but you admit blondes have this magnetizing effect too. You download a couple, slide in your earpiece as you click play.

After the foreplay, the striptease, the rest are just boring. Just the same old drills so you fast forward to the end part where the guy spends his juice. How the lady takes it is another sight you like to watch.
After watching a few, you delete.
Your tummy breeding butterflies, goosebumps appearing on your skin as your heart pounds sending blood and sensual signals to the muscle between your legs.

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The next morning you wake up with a world record hard on. It is a miracle you didn't spend last night again. You brush your teeth and head into the bathroom for a nice cold shower hoping to calm your nerves and the 8" muscle straining in your shorts.

As you go under the shower and humming to a song, flashes of the porn you watched yesterday evening saunter into your head. The one with the ebony big titted woman getting it raw with three guys seemed to linger most, as your hand subconsciously reaches for the Lux soap.

You wash a few parts of your body, as the water streaming down kept bringing more memories and flashes to your head.
And like someone been hypnotized, you eagerly rub a generous amount of the soap on your shaft as you grab it. Your psych creating an image of Calista, your neighbour and undresses her. Using her as the simulation, your hand does its magic as it expertly milks you of your paternal juice. Your moans can't be held since the shower is running.

"Victor! Do fast! Let somebody do and go to school na.. You dey born pikin?" Blessing, your little sister calls out at the top of her voice. That girl have lost her respect but you will let her slide today since you're very busy. She go hear whim after!

As your breathing changes, your pulse contracts with the visible veins straining on your shaft and spurts of juice are released bringing you the most surreal feeling of ecstasy.

And guilt.

You feel guilt weighing on you, you feel dirty as you watch your hand still holding onto your pulsating shaft while it takes its last spurts. The feeling of dirty and low dawns on you as you see your semen litter on the ground.
You just hate yourself as you attempt to wash off, But no matter how much you wash the feeling of dirt and disgust lingers on you.
The feeling of being low and unworthy.

"Pheew! This rubbish, this will be the last time. I will never do this again."

But even you know that is a lie! You just need help but how...

© Blezzed Abraham
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